Young at heart
I’ve been on a lifelong quest to stay young at heart. In a few weeks, I’ll be 38 years young, and even with my intentional efforts to stay connected to the little girl inside of me, it wasn’t until this quarantine that I realized how far I had strayed from one important aspect of who I am.
When I was a little girl, I loved to draw. I had a little pink table and chairs set up in my bedroom, complete with crayons, paints, pencils and paper. I would sit at this table for hours and hours, drawing to my heart’s content and singing to myself. I loved to draw people and animals and houses and rainbows and eyeballs (yes - I was obsessed with drawing eyeballs!) and anything else that came into my little imagination.
I would even draw my feelings.
My dad loves to tell the story about a time when little five year old Katie got in trouble and was sent to her room. Once my “timeout” was over, I emerged with a drawing of: 1) my mom with a flip-top head and fire coming out of her mouth, 2) me with giant teardrops the size of bowling balls coming out of my eyes, and 3) a conversation bubble that said “WHY IS EVERYONE MAD AT ME!!!”
Oh, how sensitive little Katie was born to express her feelings.
In this reflection, it dawned on me that I hadn’t put a crayon or paint brush or colored pencil in my hand for close to 25 years. TWENTY FIVE YEARS!!!
Well, during this quarantine, I’ve had so much newfound downtime that my colored pencils have made their way back into my life. I’ve been drawing and coloring and painting and creating, singing to myself just like the old days.
Creating art, for me, feels like jumping in a time machine and going back to 1985. I’ve enjoyed so much getting to know the little girl inside of me again and remembering the pure joy I used to feel as a child. When this quarantine is finally over, and we all go back to our lives again, I’m going to make sure I take little Katie (and my art supplies) with me.
What have you discovered about yourself during this time? In what ways can you reconnect to your inner child? I’d love to hear about it! Comment below.